So Long, Goodbye..

Thursday, June 22, 2006

To anyone who still comes in to check once in a while, I thank you for your interest in my life. :)

But i shall hereby announce the closure of my blog.

but i shall not delete it. it has many beautiful memories.. of the good.. and the bad.. all good things come to an end. but i believe the end of one good thing may signify the beginning of another.

blessings to all who were once my faithful readers.

here's to my very beautiful friend.. i wish for speedy recovery for ya. i may not understand the pain you're going thru, but u shall always be in my prayers... :)

Queen of Dopes at 9:00 PM

Tendered

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

9:41 PM

letter dated 7th April 2006.

the countdown begins.

Queen of Dopes at 9:41 PM

my new pet

Monday, March 20, 2006

10:35 PM

adopt your own virtual pet!

Queen of Dopes at 10:35 PM

lost

Friday, March 03, 2006

6:06 PM

so much has happened since the last i blogged on 7th nov 2005. don't think anyone visits this site anymore, but for those who still bothers to drop by once in a while.. thanks. :)

todays my off day from work. just feeling really bored, unsettled, unhappy.. a mixture of many feelings.

ive never told him about this blog, in fact, i didnt tell him many things.

like ive mentioned, loads have changed the past 3 months. I've changed. im no longer the sabbie everyone once knew, and maybe love? ive become someone whom i, myself, don't even understand. i dont know what i want. i don't know what im doing. i don't know what im thinking.my minds a whirlpool.. i think im a monster.

ive hurt someone very deeply and im truly sorry. now i truly understand what it means to be responsible for your own actions. perhaps thats why im so perplexed now.

its very tiring to wear a mask everyday, to smile when youre not happy, to laugh when youre not amused.

just four days ago, for the once time in my life, i snapped at someone. ive never snapped at anyone before. HE is right, "thats a surprise".

should i even be thinking about all these? am i ready to accept the consequences for the next decision im about to make?

i was foolish, and still am.

and i know ive only got myself to blame for it.

i just wanna be alone....

Queen of Dopes at 6:06 PM

first day at work

Monday, November 07, 2005

7:39 PM

p.s. **kianhang** hey, received your email! haha, er.. i think my taggie just acts up once in a while. used to it :p and nope, 2710 didnt come out. maybe next weekend!!! ;)

it was a tiring day.. but fun and fulfilling!

there are nine newbies altogether, and we'd be together for the next few weeks of intensive product training. the product training notes were terrible. its like 2 semesters' worthed of notes..i thought i bde farewell to readings 5 months ago. and guess what? we're required to sit for a test after 3 weeks of training! quite a few late-nighters, i can foresee.

the new colleagues and trainers were all friendly and cool people and we didnt take much to warm up to one another. and we were treated to a hearty lunch at tcc's (though i must say the cushion/bean bag seats werent exactly the most comfy or apt for eating a proper meal.)

i think im gonna put on all the weight i lost in china very soon. i've been piggin' out soo much!

just on friday, my parents and i drove up to malaysia for bah kut teh and loadsa seafood! we had my all-time fave oatmeal prawns, lobsters and fish... sinful!!! and on saturday, scats parents treated me to hongkong streets oatmeal prawns again!!! FATTT!!!!

and that was not all. scat and i went piggin out on sunday! gee.. but it was totally enjoyable. we had dinner at country manna's , thanks to the m1 voucher from my mom.. then we went for fondue for two at haagen daz at the esplanade! FLABBBYYY!!! but the fondue was simply heavenly..

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doesnt it make you drool??

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the chocolate dip freeezessss on the ball of ice-cream!!!

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the expression says it all..

thats all for now, shall attempt to go through the notes and visit dreamland soon. tomorrows gonna be a long day ahead...

Queen of Dopes at 7:39 PM

yay!

Monday, October 31, 2005

7:21 PM

right, i take back my words - NOT ALL high-ranked female interviewers are nasty! haha, yeah the ones i met today were pretty nice people.

shant go into details about the interview, but yeah, guess what? ive been offered the contract! :) i thought it was a goner after my 'multi-task' test. (i was basically given a brochure to read for 10 mins, after which one of the managers will pose as a customer, calling me and asking me questions about the particular product the brochure was explaining on. as i answer his questions, im supposed to type out a given paragraph, which is totally irrelevant to the product i was tested on.) i was shaking and stammering and stopped typing to listen to him blankly for a good 10 seconds of the call before i told myself to wake up and MULTITASK.

haha, i guessed i must have passed the test because when i finally got to meet the director, she looked lke she was ready to offer me a contract.

ahh, i have decided to go ahead with this and forget about bank b. there seems to be too many pros for bank a, though i really wont know if there are any hidden cons..

anyway, just sooo glad that im employed again! gone are days of boredom! hmm, better savour the last days of boredom/freedom anyway. ;)

Queen of Dopes at 7:21 PM

stressed, sian and sick

Sunday, October 30, 2005

11:41 PM

the title pretty much summed up what i'm feeling now.

stressed because im due for second interview tomorrow afternoon with the bank (lets call it bank 'a') and im SO NOT READY for it. crapping usually doesnt work for round 2. gees.

actually am rather surprised that they shortlisted me for a round two after round ones disaster. it was sooo bloody obvious that i wasnt prepared at all and was totally bluffing my way through and the essay question (yes, theres even a mini essay question) was terrible because i provided two suggestions which contradicted each other. (maybe thats why they chose me, cos i represented CREATIVITY.. ahah...zzz..)

and guess what? i passed my two papers required for bank b and they called to tell me that i'm supposed to sign the contract with them on the 4th. not really sure if im supposed to be happy about it. i suppose i should, since i sorta, erm, found a job.

was thinking, if bank a offers me the contract too? which one should i choose? haha.. nah....

i dont have much mood or energy to prepare for the interview tomorrow anyway. down with flu.. feeling feverish and achy all over and my ankle bloody hurts so much i cant walk down the stairs properly. just slept through half of today before meeting scat.

we met his sis for dinner who was so nice to treat us to some italian food! and whambam!!! i couldnt enjoy my fusilli cos i felt kinda sick... i din even finish half of it. sighs. felt so bad. and scats meats look so goood!!! i wanna go back there again...

anyway, i shall attempt to check up on bank a and prolly memorise something which i can crap on tomorrow. being unprepared is one thing.. but being interviewed by a lady is another. (yes, i gonna be interviewed by a woman tomorrow.. ) according to what ive experienced, being interviewed by high-ranking women always sucks and fails, unless you are (a) just as bitchy as her (b) or even bitchier, with a tinge of humour mixed with a pinch of humility. the bottomline : you will be rejected unless youre way up there. sighs.

yes yes.. i should stop and try to save myself by finding out more stuff about the bank and its products.

Queen of Dopes at 11:41 PM